exhausted

im tired of basically everything.. tied of my life..
mentally n pyshicali break down soon... skul projects are pilling up.. n im lazy. procastinate. just playing with the time..
i find myself spending moretime wit him. pressures on. i like the feeling when im wit him. its just different.. erm honestly not much of the security but i just feel loved-at the moment-i dono when its goin to end... all the honeymoon period. a month? a week more? im just happy very happy now... even works are pilling, working schedules are tight. there is him at the end of the dae.. seeing him just comforts me n make mi forget all the problems n mountains of hw...
i tink im failing. i tink ive chosen the wrong course... damn.. my sis is goin to kill mi. u knw as time goes by... u just dun feel tt enthu animore and tings are just getting bland and thers just no more passion... mayb its bcoz f the tight deadlines.. rejections f works tt u have to redo so mani shits... damn.. i wish i am talented n smart...
just wanna graduate fast get a job n try to work out...
my dreams f becoming air hostess shattered... no more... thx to my impulse actions... getting inked at the wrong places... damn it...