today
i discovered something
disappointment
a predicament
that i never could have expected
a young lover
fesh and outgoing
turned out to be a disgust
a person whom you could trully love
could have been somebody else
LIES
NO!
lies after lies
made up a place for me in hell
i could not wish for more
burning myself in hell
waiting for the day to come

a person whom you despised most
a person whom you loved the most
that person turned out to be you
how childish a person could be
a man could never make decisions
indecisive man disgust me
i need a man who makes the call
a man who brings breakfast every morning
a man who understands me
a man who accepts me for what and who i am
a man who sacrifices for the one he loves