none just another sat

he supoose to go back to knead his broken finger.the nite b4 he hapily went to dxo wit the vt n the girls... damn.he is still the same being.a liar. i was so pissed tt bestie has to cum by n hv a drink.... end saturdae... ended up slping the whole day b4 start gorginf food in the late afternoon... im so tired.. at least sleptquite long... frm 10-3.3.. shiok... for the first time in the week tt i can actaully rest... rest.. my mind n body... in vasion was so cool.. its a bit f the cliche... the virus.. zombie stereotype show... ut its kinda gud.. nicole kidman n tt james bond guy daniel craig...
kiang's daily routine
awake-kiss dede-check hp-wander ard-brush teeth-eat-smoke-shit-bathe-on the fan-apply moisturiser-comb hair-wear jeans-wear watch-check wallet n hp-put cigarette on the left pocket-wear socks-shoes-go
reach hm-strait to the room-put down bag-kiss dede-change shorts-lie on the bed-kiss dede-play com/watch dvd-kiss dede-take long nap-cook-dinner-smoke-bathe-wander ard-lie on the bed-talke on fone-play cm-cook supper-smoke-kiss dede-slp-hug dede

exhausted

im tired of basically everything.. tied of my life..
mentally n pyshicali break down soon... skul projects are pilling up.. n im lazy. procastinate. just playing with the time..
i find myself spending moretime wit him. pressures on. i like the feeling when im wit him. its just different.. erm honestly not much of the security but i just feel loved-at the moment-i dono when its goin to end... all the honeymoon period. a month? a week more? im just happy very happy now... even works are pilling, working schedules are tight. there is him at the end of the dae.. seeing him just comforts me n make mi forget all the problems n mountains of hw...
i tink im failing. i tink ive chosen the wrong course... damn.. my sis is goin to kill mi. u knw as time goes by... u just dun feel tt enthu animore and tings are just getting bland and thers just no more passion... mayb its bcoz f the tight deadlines.. rejections f works tt u have to redo so mani shits... damn.. i wish i am talented n smart...
just wanna graduate fast get a job n try to work out...
my dreams f becoming air hostess shattered... no more... thx to my impulse actions... getting inked at the wrong places... damn it...

imaging and screen based

finally one project is over yay...wooohoohooo
im like sick very sick...
thx to lester.. help mi alot witlot f shits.. owe him alot man.. i got to buck up wit fotoshop...
not a fantastic work though.. but at least i tried...

sorry

sorry guys.. late post... been busy busy busy... i promise will put up more pics n gossips n latest exclusiv news...

start a new

nothing else matters now.. i just wan to strt anew wit him... a new r/s together... i can feel the love now... really... n im nt goin to screw up agn... sorry baby... i love u.

love hate forgiveness

love.hate.forgiveness

there is always love and then hate and lastly forgiveness...
im goin to confess all... xclusive stories...
im a sluty whore who loves getting attention from anyone...
im portray and make myself so easy n available like 7-11.
i dun fuck around
i like being watched
i like being noticed
it was just another nite of partying... i saw them they saw us. it was quite a mutual attraction-hmm mayb i wun use attraction... it was just like oh we are frm the sm hometown... okay helo helo...
few shots down the throat... i was so naive to accept invitation frm strangers... call me easy prey or idiot...
i waslike just a click away... so easy to get... all the losers at the club see me like sum easy cheap slut hu likes to b taken advantage...i was dumb...
we danced... he *i*sed me. i was subconcious.. i response... not knowing the consequences of hurting him...
they sent us back... alot of things i have shared.. wit others.. are all false... i just wan to make it sound more dramatic... tts all.. ntg actually happen... u are all punked...
his loser fren was being a buy body n kaypoh...
my love found out the truth... it hurts...
he ended our bland 4 yrs f r/s
i couldnt accpet it.. all i asked is a chance
a chance to xplain tts all...
he called 2 days after... he said everything would be fine...
i believed him
i love him still
he made me promise him sumting...
i agreed...
i have to add this.. hu ever wans to knw more pls just ask frm mi stop getting shitty info frm anione...if u guys prefer to blieve the losers... fine.. no prob wit me.. i cant force beg u to trust me.. u make ur own choice...
frankly speaking.. .i deeply regret 4 wad i've done. pls forgive me for hurting him...
few days later... the news broke as if there was another tsunami attack... the whole world knows... his parents.they r aware f the situation. i was ashamed. as though my face was printed eveywhere on the papers... hw can i face the world?
hw can i face his friends... its over... his 2 bestie did nt like mi frm the start n i didnt knw...
i was too possesive n vulgar. i am as wad i am.. if u hv prob wit tt sorry u just hv t live wit it... i cant change its just mi... if u hv a perception f hw a girl shld b..tel mi.. u r wrng... nt all girls are softie bla bla... tell mi more... im sick n tired f this.. i cant dun gv a shit abt this.. u guys r my love's bestes well i can sae closest.. but the impression u guys hav in mi...
gosh.. i wish i cold turn back time n nt mitting or even hanging out wit u guys... i knw i never have a REPUTATION.. u guys knw me asa cheap vulgar n possessive slut... u guys dont knw wad exactly happen n wad had happened... stop judging me frm wad u hear! im tired of all these... he made me the way i am now...

911

its over man seriously...
i was so dumb to have acted this way... i cant rem much... but i was subconscious at tt poitn f time... i didt gulp down alot of alcohol... just 2 shots n 3 glses f beer... oh my n tts enuf to make mi wonder like a hungry ghost. i was tearing n talking on fone wit random ple... an ang moh lady aproach mi in the toilet... cant rem much wad she told mi... oh i wish i didnt drink so fast....
the guys-suppose to b my cmpanion..hapily watching soccer match... england versus watever.. is kinda weird... i rem hearing them talking abt the bet this n tt... the score i tink is 3-0 if im nt wrong...he called... wad am i suppose to do? the previous msg.. he already scolded mi f**King S***T... wad more to ask? he got his friends to tell mi he's drunk so tt i would come over... ass.. its over already... i went over just to c him... i dun gv a shit... i dun wan animore nonsense... i just wan a clean break... a realy clean break... i had enuf... i knw wad i did. u already knw u found out from him.... i dun have to sae aniting.. if u goin to believe watever the person sae... its up to u really... guys are jerks... n so tt loser n asshole... i wish i could turn back time
i wish i would have been more careful... i couldnt be running frm misery... i made a promise last nite.. tt i wouldnt ***s other ple already.... i could not understand y isit hapening... AGAIN.... dear readers.. the story seem to be complicated n messy i knw.. i just dun wan to type out everytin in detail... i wish i could... im pouring out half glasses of my sorrow into this.
i wanted to tell the whle world tt im a slutty slutty whore... a cheap used piece f shit... i regretted doing all these, i probably wun met fir at the 7th floor... i would b in the 18th flor f the hottest n scariest hell...
i nid to change... help mi... im hungry now... hungry for love... i wish huever can treat mi nicer... nt beating mi up or shouts at me... i wan all promises to be made, to b fulfilled... more communication. at least do mi a favor... pls work tis ting together.

draq queens

single burger

its over
its too late
im so naive
im stupid
im a slut
im a dumbo
i hurt him
im sorry
im crying him a river
what goes around really comes back all around
i just wish i can turn back time
i would have cherish
i would have be more mature

the longest moment in my f*ck*ng life

he promised me to help mi out wit my skul work...
a sudden cls outing tt is so impt tt he has to cancel on his beloved gf-well mayb nt beloved... request...
it was a promise to me...
i nid his help... he said he would help...
wel.. after a short tiff. he finally came to his senses.. after i begged him of course...
did photography... bla bla brainstorm ideas....

his sis ask mi an interesting question...
" u are carrying a heavy big bag full of ur fave things... wouldu let it go n walk freely or u would continue to walk n carry tt hefty burden on yer back?"
"i told her my bag has never been light. no matter big small bag i will still carry it whereever i go"

is it love?
isit hard to love somebody?
has he changed?
or i have changed?

im tired... so xhausted of all the nonsense...
the reason of mi being paranoid n unreasonable?
its him...
he made me

i just wan attentions. isit too much to ask?
help me... i want to be loved not to love
y isit so hard to love a person?

sunday

sundays... my onli time..to do hw.. as usuall head to library... do hw... hell. it was like again.. procastinating.. i have tt alot in mi... met up wit sil... she wanted to buy denim shorts...
got 2 tops n 2 shorts... pretty gud.. spent like 150 on all... makan again... as usual same place same dish..just wanted to c my darling..
i just love him.. well at the moment.. b4 all the lets take sum time off... bla bla.. now.. i love him alot... its juts like u just got into relationship u just wan to c tt special sumone everydae... u wouldnt let off ani chance of meeting..
again i went home alone.. its been like sumtime since he last sent mi home...
i feel so miserable... i want to be wit him every sec, min. hr everydae.

soccer n movies

pending posts... time to post sum dada again...
soccer tounamnet on last sat was a trash man.. seriously.. my dearest darling n his peeps... lose strait to the face 2-0... street soccer at mdis.. 64 teams total.. well 63 i guess one f the team again didnt show up... pretty much exciting..each game lasted 10 mins... my dearest team iron liver versus the indians wad ranger or sum other hsitty name... they lose seriously.. no team work.. in the court their team was in the mess... their goal keeper was pretty gud.. heard tt he was trained in indo league.. im nt so sure actually... my bf fell twice.. i guess it was again his stunt...useless.. the referee-correct spelling? was pretty kayu.. he totally a loser... su team-delippo lose strait o the face as well 2-0... su was lousy.. after 2 min exhausted... sub agn... sub agn... twice for god sake.. tink he smokes too much no stamina.. n he gained weight well alot.. his double chin was so visible n i tot he look abit toad... hahah.. herry gained weight too.. guess he is pretty happy in the relationship wit yy... my poorr bf... i must feed him... pics will b upload soon.. nt much pics though...
went to watch rat-a-too-ee.. it was pretty hilarious.. very funny.. the best cartoon.. the grpahics etc... hmm.. i just love the director n creator...