love hate forgiveness

love.hate.forgiveness

there is always love and then hate and lastly forgiveness...
im goin to confess all... xclusive stories...
im a sluty whore who loves getting attention from anyone...
im portray and make myself so easy n available like 7-11.
i dun fuck around
i like being watched
i like being noticed
it was just another nite of partying... i saw them they saw us. it was quite a mutual attraction-hmm mayb i wun use attraction... it was just like oh we are frm the sm hometown... okay helo helo...
few shots down the throat... i was so naive to accept invitation frm strangers... call me easy prey or idiot...
i waslike just a click away... so easy to get... all the losers at the club see me like sum easy cheap slut hu likes to b taken advantage...i was dumb...
we danced... he *i*sed me. i was subconcious.. i response... not knowing the consequences of hurting him...
they sent us back... alot of things i have shared.. wit others.. are all false... i just wan to make it sound more dramatic... tts all.. ntg actually happen... u are all punked...
his loser fren was being a buy body n kaypoh...
my love found out the truth... it hurts...
he ended our bland 4 yrs f r/s
i couldnt accpet it.. all i asked is a chance
a chance to xplain tts all...
he called 2 days after... he said everything would be fine...
i believed him
i love him still
he made me promise him sumting...
i agreed...
i have to add this.. hu ever wans to knw more pls just ask frm mi stop getting shitty info frm anione...if u guys prefer to blieve the losers... fine.. no prob wit me.. i cant force beg u to trust me.. u make ur own choice...
frankly speaking.. .i deeply regret 4 wad i've done. pls forgive me for hurting him...
few days later... the news broke as if there was another tsunami attack... the whole world knows... his parents.they r aware f the situation. i was ashamed. as though my face was printed eveywhere on the papers... hw can i face the world?
hw can i face his friends... its over... his 2 bestie did nt like mi frm the start n i didnt knw...
i was too possesive n vulgar. i am as wad i am.. if u hv prob wit tt sorry u just hv t live wit it... i cant change its just mi... if u hv a perception f hw a girl shld b..tel mi.. u r wrng... nt all girls are softie bla bla... tell mi more... im sick n tired f this.. i cant dun gv a shit abt this.. u guys r my love's bestes well i can sae closest.. but the impression u guys hav in mi...
gosh.. i wish i cold turn back time n nt mitting or even hanging out wit u guys... i knw i never have a REPUTATION.. u guys knw me asa cheap vulgar n possessive slut... u guys dont knw wad exactly happen n wad had happened... stop judging me frm wad u hear! im tired of all these... he made me the way i am now...